Wow... it seemed ages since I last wrote. Its not that I do not want to post anything but lately my life sux. Many unhappy moments happened. Seemed that recently nothing good happens to me. My pets died on me. My dog was given away. There seemed to be no happiness at home for me.
Lately, me and him seemed to have so much problems. Maybe I am at fault. I am not a good gf. So many things seemed to be intervening our relationship. Especially his parents. I don't think his parents like me. Its so hurtful to know his parents dislike me.
I love him so much till it hurts cause I know he is his parents son. No matter what they are his parents. Even if he said he is already an adult and he makes his own decisions and not his parents but still... I can't ask him to go against his parents decisions. I know he loves me alot. But I am the type of girl who prefers my bf's family's approval and I am not sure if his parents will approve of us infuture or not...
All my life I always strive to make people like me. Do things that gets people's approval. I always put myself last. But still my life is such that whatever I do is never enough.
Why is my life like this? Don't I deserve at least some happiness? What are my sins? When will my life start anew? Will I be ever able to have a happy life?
