New Chapter In My Life

Broke off with my boyfriend of 5 years. I wished it won't come to this but no matter what, we have too much differences. Though it hurts like hell but still I feel its best we broke off. There are so many things that he wished for but I am unable to fulfill. I am so heartbroken even if it was me who wanted this. Its killing me slowly.

Dying inside bit by bit.

Silent Scream

Why do I feel as if I am being crushed by a boulder? Why am I such an insecure person? I guess this is my biggest flaw. I think too much. I have always been like this. Even before I do something I will always think about the outcome, the pros and cons. It can be good to think in advance but sometimes it can be hell when its not something u like.

I wished I could just scream out and let out my pent up feelings. My imagination is running wild. It could be a small matter to a certain person but to me its not. I wished I can have the feeling of being secured. I am the type of girl who always need to be assured because I don't even have confidence in myself... Life sux...

Longest days of my life

5 days. 5 days my internet was down. And they were the longest 5 days of my life. I am such an unlucky girl. But I think this is the 1st time I read so many books in 5 days .I am so glad I have my books to keep me company. But thank God the waiting is over now. Now I can continue with my life again.

The return Of The Black Sheep

Well guess I am back now. It has been more than a year since I last logged in. Many things has happened during the time I did not log in. The good and the bad and the worst.

Well I am still the same girl I was a year ago though I have matured tremendously this one year. Life is still the same. Still staying at home. Haven't started Uni yet because I am still helping to take care of an elderly family member. Life is bored as usual. Doing the same things. Having the same chores.

Well 2 nights ago my bro-in-law was in his usual good mood when he drinks. He was going to have his dinner and he saw there were not many spoons in the cabinet and he asked me where I put all the spoons. I told him they were all at the same place I put after I washed them. Then he asked me why there were so few and asked me what I did to them. I was already in a bad mood so I answered him back. I told him "How do I know? Do u think I ate it ?" Well I know I should not answer back but u should have heard the his tone when he asked me. He was accusing me. 

Next thing I know he threw his ashtray at me and it hit my hips. I know I should have avoided it but I was so mad that I just stood there and stared at him. He threw his dinner plate but it hit the wall coz I avoided the 2nd time he threw. I am so glad he did not use all his strength as I can see by the way he threw it, it was not with all his might or else I would have to go to the hospital.

I went directly to my room and let him shout whatever he wants. So sick of him and his abusive ways. Only think I was afraid is when he

goes to his friend's house to drink. Oh my. Every night he comes home drunk like hell. I do not know how my sis can stand him but who cares. Its her husband. After his dinner he went out.

I wanted to lock myself in my room tonight but I was afraid when he comes back he will scold me again and I was right. He came back, opened my door and started to shouting at me again and this time I kept my mouth shut and just stared at him. Maybe he hated my look and so he almost threw my hand cream at me but he stopped at the last moment when I used my hands to cover my face. Then he went out of my room and went to sleep in his room. Sis did not even come out to see what was wrong. I am so glad I did not lock my room or else he would have broken down my door.

Haiz. He is a really sick guy. Hate him. I should have told him to go attend some anger management course but I might get beaten up again. I just wished life is kinder to me. Is that so hard to ask for?

BRINGING NINETOLOGY ONTO THE NEXT UPSCALE LEVEL

In conjunction with Malaysia’s 56th Independence Day, Ninetology Malaysia has officially launched its Flagship Touch Point at Plaza Low Yat, Malaysia’s Largest IT Lifestyle Mall, on 30 August 2013. With a concept like no other, Ninetology’s Flagship Touch Point offers consumers an experiential touch point for today’s lifestyles and culture as well as a product showcase. At the Flagship Touch Point, not only would the Ninetology products be showcased, it’s a place where consumers can learn how to use a smartphone to enhance their lifestyles and interests. The flagship Touch Point will serve as a youth and culture training hub to spread the urbanite culture that is cultivated by Ninetology. The Ninetology smartphones are not just communication tools, but a device that can advance one’s social visibility, thus opening doors to more opportunities. Eight more Flagship Touch Points within the Klang Valley will be opened this year with another nine outlets scheduled within Malaysia by next year. The Ninetology’s Flagship Touch Point is opened from 10.00am to 10.00pm daily.

A ribbon cutting ceremony was held to launch the first Flagship Touch Point. Gracing the ceremony were the management team of Ninetology Malaysia comprising of Sean Ng (Chief Executive Officer), Marco Beh (Chief Operations Officer), Shian (Chief Finance Officer), Vijian Chan (Chief Marketing Officer), and Eddy Tay (Head of Channel); Michael Lee (General Manager, Property Management and Operations of Plaza Low Yat), and celebrities such as Z-Chen, Iqwal Hafiz, and Sasi the Don.

Earlier last month, Ninetology Malaysia also launched their U9 series at KL Hilton Hotel, Malaysia. The “Unite-as-One” power-infused technology with the urbanite profile was presented in three models: The X1, Z1, and Z1+, which are new and stylish devices engineered to meet the human needs of speed, precision and high levels of engagement. For more information on Ninetology U9 smartphones, visit www.ninetology.com/u9 

“We are very proud to be in strategic partnership with MediaTek Inc, the leading fabless semiconductor company for wireless communications and digital multimedia solutions.  MediaTek’s invaluable support in providing us with high performance and reliable information communications solutions, as well as highly integrated and customized solutions, has significantly shortened our time-to-market, enhanced our product competitiveness, and also bring a better overall user experience. We are currently second largest in terms of mobile device market share. With the introduction of the U9 series, we hope to further strengthen Ninetology’s position as well as to grab a sizeable share in the Premium Smart Phones category,” said Mr. Sean Ng Chee Heng (Chief Executive Officer, Ninetology Marketing Sdn. Bhd.).

A ribbon cutting ceremony was held to launch the first Flagship Touch Point. Gracing the ceremony were the management team of Ninetology Malaysia comprising of Sean Ng (Chief Executive Officer), Marco Beh (Chief Operations Officer), Shian (Chief Finance Officer), Vijian Chan (Chief Marketing Officer), and Eddy Tay (Head of Channel); Michael Lee (General Manager, Property Management and Operations of Plaza Low Yat), and celebrities such as Z-Chen, Iqwal Hafiz, and Sasi the Don. 

The U9 series smart phones with 16GB ROM/1GB RAM of internal memory are ideal for viewing videos, playing games and other content with super-fast connectivity, are powered by Android 4.2 and a MediaTek MT6589 1.2GHz Quad-core processor, in which would deliver a richer smart phone experience at a competitive price. Customers enjoy access to more than thousands of applications including social network, productivity and utilities, entertainment, and appstore. They have display screens of 4.8” (X1), 5.7” (Z1) and 5.5” (Z1+) respectively. They are slim and light and would be a stylish and durable companion for upbeat lifestyles. (Please click on the thumbnail below for a larger view on the specifications)

At the launch, Ninetology also revealed their newly appointed Product Spokesperson, Z-Chen, a Malaysian Mandopop singer, also fondly known as the R&B Little Prince.  “As a singer and urbanite myself, I can truly appreciate the U9 series.  The U9 smart phones truly understand my needs as an individualist with various interests and a strong desire for freedom.  With the U9 series, there are unlimited possibilities to enrich my lifestyle and illuminate my unique personality, work and music. I feel that I am always united-as-one with my U9 smart phone in one seamless human-technology integration,” said Chen.

Mr. Leslie Loh, Chief Digital Officer of Ninetology Marketing Sdn. Bhd. (2^nd from right) introducing a gadget review program targeting all Malaysian bloggers – Tech Kaiju Arena. Along side from left is Kevin Chong TraxxFM Radio Presenter, Quah of quachee.blogspot.com, and Mark O’Dea from The London Boys. 

For those bloggers who are interested to review the U9 series smart phones, you can check out more on the Tech Kaiju Arena Program by submitting your name, blog link, email and contact number to publisher@ninetology.com early to avoid disappointment. Only shortlisted candidates will be contacted. Terms and conditions apply. This program will be ongoing until December 2013.

In The Labyrinth

Wow... it seemed ages since I last wrote. Its not that I do not want to post anything but lately my life sux. Many unhappy moments happened. Seemed that recently nothing good happens to me. My pets died on me. My dog was given away. There seemed to be no happiness at home for me.

Lately, me and him seemed to have so much problems. Maybe I am at fault. I am not a good gf. So many things seemed to be intervening our relationship. Especially his parents. I don't think his parents like me. Its so hurtful to know his parents dislike me. 

I love him so much till it hurts cause I know he is his parents son. No matter what they are his parents. Even if he said he is already an adult and he makes his own decisions and not his parents but still... I can't ask him to go against his parents decisions. I know he loves me alot. But I am the type of girl who prefers my bf's family's approval and I am not sure if his parents will approve of us infuture or not... 

All my life I always strive to make people like me. Do things that gets people's approval. I always put myself last. But still my life is such that whatever I do is never enough.

Why is my life like this? Don't I deserve at least some happiness? What are my sins? When will my life start anew? Will I be ever able to have a happy life?

I WANT!!!

Well so much so for doomsday. Well today is supposed to be doomsday as the Mayans predicted and here I am writing on my blog. I have been worrying myself sick because of this day. Silly me. So what if its really the end of the world? 

Well actually I really do not want the world to end yet. Hey!! There are still many things I have not done. I want to get married! I want to be a mother! I want to be a grandmother!! (if possible a great grandmother =P) 

There are still so many things I want to achieve. I want to be free from this place I called home. I want to be with the person I loved most. I want to always be beside him through thick and thin. Whatever life has to offer, I want to share with him because I love him so much =)

                    Here are some pics to share hehe