Emotions

Now you see me Now you don't

To outsiders I may look like a happy go lucky girl but deep inside nobody knows I am dying. The only place I can really be myself is on my blog or my page.

Silent Tears

It's so torturing when u have to cry in silent. All those pent up emotions bursting on the brim. No one to talk to... No one to share my feelings...My pillow are full of tear stains from the nights I cry myself to sleep. Only my pillow can hear my screams. The nights when even crying was not helping at all and so I had to scream onto my pillow...Every night... the memories are the worst when I am lying on my bed...

Poetry and Poems

Yes I love poetry. I hope one day I would be able to write my own poetry. But meantime I will share others posts instead. What I post is how I feel when I am writing my blog. 

By ~Musings of a Poetic Soul~

I will never forget the way
   you made me feel...

           ...Like I was everything.


And I will never forget the way
   you made me feel...

           ...Like I was nothing

By Antonio M Arce

Empty Shell Of Me

You may see me as whole but in actual fact I am just an empty shell. Normal on the outside but dead inside...

Bitter Taste

  

It's so hard... so hard not to go back on my words... I told him I will not contact him anymore but each time I am on my facebook I had to force myself not to click on his profile to see if he posted anything or how he is doing. 

Damn... I really need something to distract my mind. I wonder how some people can get over a breakup... 

Closure

This time it's for real. No matter how much it hurts to let go... This is what he wanted so it's no point holding on when he definitely doesn't have anymore feelings for me. It's better to leave while we are still in good terms rather than it being on bitter terms. 

It was the hardest thing to say when I told him I am letting him go. I am sure he is glad I am doing this. This time he totally have no more commitments and he do not have to hide whatever he's doing anymore. I am very sure now he is happy.

As for me... woke up this morning and he is still the first thing on my mind. It's like a knife cutting me up. But I told myself it's for the best. For him so he can achieve what he wants and for me so I could move on.