Hi to those of u who still visits my blog. Sorry for not posting anything for so long. Life has not been kind to me especially at present.
The person I trusted and believed in most have betrayed me. He kept hiding things from me but told me he did not hide anything from me. Its so hard. I want to believe what he said but evidences proves likewise.
He told me he is sorry for wanting to end this relationship. After so many years now he tells me this. He said he does not want any relationship as now he wants to concentrate on his job and also to find his meaning of life. He said if I want I can put all the blame on him.
I still love him. It's breaking my heart like never before. I feel suffocated. I feel useless. I really don't know what to do. He is my world. He is everything to me. He has always been the only person who cared for me. No one cares for me. Not my family. Not my friends. Now I don't even know if I have any true friends as I feel no one cares if I am broken or not.
I am such a fool for always believing what he tells me. But what can I say. Love is blind. I am not strong. He keeps asking me to be strong. How can I be strong if I am the one who is hurt? I have no one to rely on. No one to talk about my problems. Some nights I wake up in the middle of the night wanting to die. I can't eat well... I can't sleep well... I feel numb...
Everyday I had to hide myself and cry. Cried as if my heart is broken. Dear Lord... please help me... I am so lost...
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